I don’t have a life anymore… This is hard for me to say really. I feel as though my life has been taken away by all the hate and hurt and blameness and assumptions that have been brought on me by the only single person I care and love. I know its rather pathetic of me to think this but everyday the words you say… They stick with me, you see and at the end of each day my mind replays over and over again all of those harsh mean things. I have come to believe that I am just a waste of time, a waste of space, I have no common sense so I guess that makes me dumb. I am believing it is true. It must be if it’s coming from your mouth. I am nothing anymore, just a worthless tool to be played with, like my feelings you see. I’ve been blamed and everyone thinks I’m someone I am not. Even you… I don’t understand you or why you are so mean to me. I care about you, ive done so many things for you, I am always here for you, anything you could imagine chiverist I’ve done. This is my suicide note. You never hear anything I say so I am just gonna say this.
You Were Wrong.
I am a loser, a sucker for love. I am so annoying that the only logical way to fix this is to end my life, end my feelings and emotions towards you. Because I can’t get them to stop.. Not when I am in love, and for reasons you dont (I don’t understand). So I guess you can thank me for this.. No more annoying you, are bothering you or wasting your time or hearing me. No one cares. I. Am nothing. Goodbye